Hey all, 

An update after 2 weeks of not blogging! Jsie is lazy :P 

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Met up with siqin and alicia after so long! Wanted to go for makansutra for dinner but it was packed and it started raining. 
So we headed for sakae sushi at citylink instead. Food was normal but the company was great (: Chatted and reminisce about the past about how we use to call each other's crushes by nicknames! Damn epic ones!! Croco, eli, catfish. Hahah! 

If it wasn't for band, I would not have know these awesome girls at all (: I've always had band dreams, even up to now.
Marching, training, section, band members. 
It was a tough and tiring journey, through the band formation and stuffs, but the SYF moment was the best I've ever experience. No regrets at all <3 (: 

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Met up with liyin and michelle too! 
Went to S.E.A aquarium to mini celebrate liyin's super belated birthday! Because of packed schedule and UT(s) period then! 
It was really an eye opener, fishes, jellyfishes, sharks, sea urchins etc! Damn pretty especially the transparent jellyfishes that had different colour lights shone through them and how they have tissue-like tails that follow them wherever they go! :D
And hammerhead sharks! I've always wanted to see them in real life! Cute little ones that are sooooo hard to take a picture of. They just keep swimming above and don't wnna come down!!

Chit chatted with my girls till around 8pm and proceeded home after wards. Great day and shall have one again before ly fly overseas (:

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Attended youth scientist symposium with SN and YT to support bfy (boyfriend :D), judy, yun and weekiat! 
They were for the poster presentation. 
Although it was quite biased against RP, but overall the experience and the day was quite good. Had a mini tour of science centre (for free!) and tea chit chatting session with jer faci (: 

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Went for MDIS and NTU open house.
Shall wait for news from NTU if not I will be going for november's intake at MDIS bachelor of biomed sci w specialisation in either cancer biology/medical cell biology/medical biochemistry. 
Was initially indecisive of MDIS / Psb academy if NTU fails me but decided to go for MDIS cos PSB doesnt have an honours with bachelor degree!

So if successful, (MDIS), I will only need to study for 2 years and will get my deg w honours. Gonna strive for first class!! 

Results for poly will be out on 4th april anyway. 
Excited but nervous at the same time. Graduation gown gonna be ready for purchase soon as well.
Can't wait!!! Damn excited (: (: (: 

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Hanged out with poly dearies clique for badminton, and hanging out at clarkequay. Initally to drink but plan fail. 
Sigh but honestly, it's just getting weaker and weaker, the friendship bond.
Sad to say but I'm slowly losing interestship and effortship. The number of responses and replies although there's initiation. Sigh. Just hopes it'll get better after 30th march.

But, no expectations with no disappointment.

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Had a short catch up session with jasonm, leo, teddy and bala! Cos leo and jasonm booked a car for 2 days so went for a mini car ride(: 
Hanged out around punggol and hougang ave 7! 
As usual, mad laughters and catch up sessions :D 3 years had just passed like that and we are poly graduates already! Looking forward to the next-class-outing-to-be !!!

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Chompchomp dinner meetup with huisin, cindi, jen, cheryltay! After that was usual waffle and mango dessert at dessertbowl (: 
Planned overseas trip prolly to HK but upcoming one will be to batam around april! 
My first ever overseas trip other than malaysia! I'm so noob I know but I'm so excited!! (: It'll be 2D1N heheheheh! 

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Participated in Biopharma convention, basically the 100 approved abstracts will just need to display their A0 poster up for viewing gallery, alongside with big companies such as supply management (clinical trials etc), R&D organizations etc. 
It was a total new experience! All soooo pro!! Quite sad at first round around the convention centre cos most of them ignore us because we are polytechnic students ): 
But overall it was great! Went for dinner with judy, bfy, yun at qiji at nex and homed! 

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Went out with bfy for movie (wizard of Oz) at amkhub (:
Quite touched actually, told him I was bored and he asked whether I want to go walk walk and he will accompany me. Like so impromptu cos by then it's already 5pm.  Heheh (: . Had pepperlunch and the movie was nice! Rating around 8/10 ba. 

Bfy accompanied me to print my A0 poster and meet up w elesis and ray at her coffeeshop too. Thanks bfy for accompanying me, going around with me to buy stuffs for elesis and poster, without complaining the hassle at all (: 

Those goodmorning messages, goodnight loves, whatsapp emoticons and making up of our own languages and words used, it really make my day . 
20 days and still counting <3 <3 <3 
I know this may be toooooooooo early to say, but, I see my future with you :D Something #honestly I dont see in my previous ex(es).
Being with you, I am constantly happy #honest , full of laughters and smiles around you. It's like the first time I fall in love again. The butterflies whenever I see you even till now I do have them! though I might not appear to be nervous and stuffs. 

How cute you look when you just stare at me with your eyes, whenever you see me and you will just blush. I just totally adore guys who blush because I think that's so cute of them(:
How addictive you look and how irritatingly blur/ act blur you can be. Major meltssss please :D how you prioritize me and your naggy concerns. How you always perspire more whenever you are nervous. How you are so afraid of purple and smirky emoticons in whatsapp. SO CUTE lar your response! It's just emoticons but he's scared of them whenever I uses them! :'D  (cos I said that's eviljes hehehe!)
How you hold my hands and giving that cute face whenever I wnna tickle you/ bite your hands. 

Heheeh (: (: (: 

I love you mel bfy :D
Love die you :D:D:D

That's all for now!
Most pictures are in my instagram : screwedqueen
Tomorrow going for dinner meetup with ASTAR-SIgN lab people at buona vista! Hehehe shy but it'd been so long! Hopefully theres good news for job placement as well but if not it's okay as well! Oh yeah going for mini temp job with liyin and mich as well around the early april.

X, 

One of the best thing that happened in my life (: (: 

28th Feb 2013
You asked me out for lunch the next day and I SWEAR. 
I was goddamn shocked because I really did not expect it at all. Not any soon, or not any occurance at all. You just gave me the impression of a quiet cute, and blurblur guy. 
When I asked is it the idea/plan of a close guy of ours, you immediately called and clarify, and ask again. How sweet hur (: 
Even making plans and all, which girl in the world does not like a guy that has plans, instead of keep saying 'anyting' and whatnot?

1st March 2013
The start of something magical. (:
'It's okay to be short tempered and jealous, it's part of it right? If I like you, I have to like you for who you are'. 
FUCKING.JUST.MAKE.ME.MELT.ALL.OVER. 
The way you talked, the way you are honest with your feelings even though you are shy around me, really make me feel your sincerity and maturity level. <3 (: (: 
Another side of you that really amazed me (: 

Met up with you for 3 days straight, 2 days with clique and one day out for running, constantly whatsapping eachother every minute (: and twitter, as well too. 
OMO la seriously, this guy last warning with his sweetness. Too much already jsie buay tank, the warm heart feeling and constant smiling to myself like an idiot (: 
Thank you mel, thank you for being such a dear (: 
I still literally asked friends around whether am I in a dream, just cant believe that this is happening to me cos I know how I am like. I can be really different in relationships.

But I will change, just for you.
To be a better individual, a better girlfriend. 
I will really treasure you. #honest . 
You are someone I can talk to without backspacing my words at all, without second thoughts and just very easily express what I want to say, someone that I can have countless topics to talk about.
And when I feel that sometimes the convo is ending, you always start something in the conversation and it really makes me feel your effort in wanting to talk to me (: and thanks for that my mel (:
When I was being lame, you still pei he me. Hahahha!
When you said that you dont mind and dont care what others are gonna say or think when our rs was made public, it really made me happy you know? Like kinda 'proud' to have me as your gf aites.  

MELVIN TAN POH LENG (: (: 
Thanks for every little things that you had done for me, your sweet words and thoughts, and being such an awesome boyfriend. 

6 days and ongoing. 
<3 <3 (: 

After today's UT3 Structural Biology..

Walao think it's difficult for me lei... though MANY MANY MANY careless mistakes made. Like last minute changing of answers, having an idea but not putting it down.
Walao really make me want to give up lei. Like for all other modules.

3 more exams. 
Walaoooooooooooo cant wait to get this shit over and done with.
Need to do my best. But fucking demoralized.

Okay can. 

Hey all.

Gonna be a wordy post all about the title, (:
3 years of my poly life, the poly I diedie will not go to because of it's then ranking, because I want to achieve perfection and only aim for other polys.
At the end of the day, i went for direct admission exercise for RP biomedical science, because I badly want to study this course.

Thank you MUMMY, thanks for everything. For helping me to apply for DAE cos I was busy with my part time job (TRU) then. When I gave up on all hopes and want to retake my O's as a private cannidate.
Thanks to sis and ray, for helping me in my poly decsions.
Thanks to my sec school friends too, and all the support I had then. To go into RP DBMS, achieve good scores and transfer to a better poly.
I didnt transfer in the end, because of my bad results. And I feel that RP style of learning is not that bad after all.

The first year of poly, it was great. I was naughty, I was playful, I was hardworking, but I didnot study much. I relied on open notes, notes from friends, till semester two I then start t pick up. I played games during lessons, msn webcams, always hanging out after school. I had cliques, but there were disagreements too. I flared up at slackish team members, screamed in class at them and was always classifid as an ahlian. I wear eyeliner and often hang out with my sec sch friends. Most of my classmates vote me for the runner up for best team mate (:

Second sem, my class was closer than the previous. More into science related modules but still not specifically into my course. We had outings, common dislike against this classmate and evn get into disciplinary problem, well not all but i am one of them, just because this irritating guy keep disturbing me and I always tsk him. He keep saying I am an ahlian, wtfuck. I lost abit of hope in studies here, when mama passed on.

The second year of poly, every one start to buck up for studies. I become a mega nerd and chiong revision when it's only the second week of school re-opening. Got into a relationship with boy D, which lasted for 2 months. At the end of the sem, I slacked and wasted my score because of 2A, I got one C in the end. Really wasted. Stopped wearing eyeliner cos I was lazy.

Second sem, I worked hard again. Got a 3.3 GPA and really glad did not disappoint mummy. Awesome clique I have that we went drinking together and had fun.

The third year of poly, internship in the first sem - chiropractic first. Initially was really upset it was not lab based, but eventually it ended up really well. Read my previous blog post t know more). School reopen in second semester, done my final year project. It was really tough and stressful juggling fyp and studies and exams t the same time. Countless nights of nosleep and together wit my class, we are plainly a class of zombies. But we did not give up and still cme to class without fail.
Formed a whatsapp group and we became even closer, till now it's one of my best RP clique I had so far.

And I just realised for internship I passed with recognition :))) Something I wanted SO BADDDDD. It's only awarded to top 5% of the cohort. OMYFREAKINGGOonESSSSs

These 3 years of poly life, is indeed something that will remain deep in my heart. It had indeed changed my perpective of RP, although there are different people encountered that are reflective of what society is like. Friends, may just betray you just to get their grades, faci that are bias to smart students you just have to prove them wrong and not give up, and people who just copy ndpaste notes into their exam script and that's so unfair. I know.

One last leap of UT3 and graduation will be held on april, I guess. Meanwhile maybe look for a part time/ full time job (maybe in astar sign) . Applied for NTU already, fingers crossed! And psb/mdis to go t their open house and also apply.
PSB application fee itself is already a $100/- -.-

Labs, one of my favourie (:

With alex pham, structural bio faci

Best clique ever in RP!!!
Reeta, sachi, YT, judy, yun, mimi, kangqi, SN, mel, sean, yihui, deon

My last poly sem class!!!

Clique from Y2S2 tlll now <3

More pictures in insta, facebook and twitter.
Thats all for now! (:

X

It'd been a long time since I last had that feeling.
I darent hope on for much, because I may just end up being more disappointed, I guess.

:( I don't know.

I think you're cute (: 
And I think I kinda like you.... how? :((( 

My hair after DIY dye red. Failed as the colour is not even, gonna re-dye this weekend!! 
And the fucking hair cut I got for fucking $50. Really regret cutting layer, now have to bun up cos my hair is toooooo short and ugly. 
FML

Hey all,

UT2's over. FYP's over.
Smelled freedom accompanied with some king robert whisky for that night. My alcohol tolerance is still cui. Couldn't tank much but didn't KO that night. 

UT3 is the last leap, ending school on feb 14
Feeling sad all inside that alex pham structural bio faci is leaving us after week 15. Off to australlia to conti study for his vet course.
This sem, all my faci were great and awesome. 
Really making the last few months in RP a brilliant one. 
Thanks for facilitating me. Thanks for being such a great friend. 
I hope we stay in contact via our little whatsapp group, and via twitter and via facebook (:

Gonna fucking miss my clique, one of the best in RP so far. 
Really hope that we will not disperse and not stay in contact. 
:'((((((( 

I dontwanna grow up. Yet.

Sob. 

Hey dears, 

Got confidence to get at least a B+ or A for cell cycle oncology UT2 again (: 
But for genomics UT2, really very disappointed in myself. Counted and I lost like 17 marks out of 20. First time gonna get a grade lower than C for UT(s). Ohmygod can cryyyyyyyyy. 

The upcoming week will be filled with 2 UT(s), and FYP.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
After that gonna pamper myself!! 
Wnna paint my nails gold, like finalllyyyyyy 

And also dye my hair RED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loreal Paris Excellence fashion (: 

Okay thats all still studying SB and proteo ): 
Hope can be on time!!!

X, 

To live for others, or for yourself? 

Since young, I have this mini goal I want to achieve in my life.
To make people healthy and happy, no matter how much I have to suffer, as long as it benefits the others. 
I don't mind to sacrifice my life, committing my life just to make others happy. 

Now, all these are gone, or somehow, somewhere. 
I no longer live for others. I don't live for myself either. Or rather, I still do live for others, but in a different point of view.
For my family and friends, for those who care for me. To not let them be sad and worry over me. To let them have this feeling that I am okay. 

In one way or another, I hide stuffs and emotions from them.
This displays a lack of trust. A lack of relationship bonds. Because I chose to open myself up to only certain friends but not all friends. Though friends should share joy and woe. 
Although yes because I dontwant them to worry, dontwant to spread the sadness, This led me to feel that they dont care on some occasions. But who's the one causing all these misery in the first place? Who's the contradicting one? Why expect something when you want to isolate yourself and yet want concern out of a sudden?

Sometimes I get so confused with myself. Little voices in my head telling and reflecting on actions I did. The consequences. The contradiction I had within myself. How bad I am in terms of being an individual. 

I should really find my purpose in life, again.
I'm like following the crowd blindly. 
http://letters2lily.blogspot.sg/ is a good website anyway, answering most of the questions which I will come up with, but have no answers to. 

X, 

OMG SO INSPIRED by hayley woo's hair colour!!

SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!!