Hey all
Ya so wednesday 10th Oct was my last day at A*STAR
It ended up really great,
Presentation went well, coffeemuffins was good, and even more appreciation was made known.
It was really a very warm feeling:)
Lab lunch at thai place.
PI (Dr Maria), Dr Jinshu, Sharrada, Dr Victor, Dr Sriram, Dr Leigh, Dr Lakshmi, Sabrina, Xiangying :)
Though in the initial weeks I really really felt inferior as compared to them and the rest of A*STAR researchers,
They were the ones that really make me enjoy my FYP experience there.
Joking, laughing, being serious in experiments, lab meetings, lunch and dinner chats, gossipings etc.
They even made a card for me, asking me to come back often :')
And thanks alot victor for everything, guiding me, tolerating my nonsense and mistakes and keep forgiving, never ever give up on me and even sacrificing your night to help me with the presentation.
I had certainly learnt alot of techniques, enjoyed myself alot, learnt alot of knowledge and also made a great bunch of friends there.
I am really very touched because I could never imagine this.
Lab researchers enjoying my presence because of my smile, my energy and enthusiasm, PI being impressed with what I did and Victor for always being a dear and always saying he's proud of me and what not.
There may even be a chance for me to go back but I shall not have any hopes (yet) till further notice :)
Though I dare not take credits and still felt that all is thanks to victor(and largely it is), I am still deeply grateful for all the praises, recognition, positive comments and good impression you all had of me:)
Thankyou ML Lab :)
As for today, first day of school, module Structural Biology.
It was okay, but faci said that this module will be one of the hardest to score and there's alot of repeat students.
Oh man, abit afraid but shall take it one at a time.
Still not having the back-to-school feeling and drive or motivation, to really aim for the best.
But I should and I must, because having a GPA of 3.2 is easy to drop and I will be very happy to just maintain it man.
No lower than 3 please :(
Class was O-K.
And I'm still planning to stay back after school till 6pm at library everyday?
One reason is not to come back home so early... and maybe I can use that time to study.
Bad thing is when I go off at this timing, it's peak hour at mrt. And that sucks. Needa a sit especially when I always doze off from the long journey back to yiochukang.
Then, needa chiong FYP report also.
Huhuhuhu not really know how to go about it cos there's changes made, will not be doing the same as what I did back in lab though it might be easier but also must think through again.
Shall plan over the weekends and get it over with :)
That's all for now,
Gonna shut myself from the world again. I can't help but feel damn depressed.
I mean like hanging out in school though school's over, thou it's my own choice. But loneliness play a part.
Like you know who your friends are VS classmates.
I don't mind being alone and buying lunch alone and whatnot.
But time to time will still feel depressed, thou there's always someone that I can chat with in class larh.
It's okay it's alright.
I'm not that important after all.
Just gonna fucking chiong studies, bury bury bury.
[Edit] : CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT stand people who come to science just because of
- no choice
- last resort
- dontknow what to choose
- content very gross, i regret.
FUCK YOU.
I know it's personal but I cannot stand it.
X,