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DLYJ :(
DLYJ :(
Hey all
Has it occured to you before, when you simply don't know how to phrase your words, what you're feeling, it just seems so difficult to type it out, to describe? It's like being stuck in a pile of quicksand The more you struggle, the deeper you sink You are unable to come out of the situation, staying there resulting in prolonged injury and hurt, going nowhere waiting for someone to lend you a helping hand Around you are those that pass by you, whereby for a moment when they surround you, you seemed so carefree, enlightened and made you forget your plight. But this does not last for long, they got to hurry to do their chores, go back to their lives and there you are, back in the sticky situation Some are equipped with sticks, but are not long and sturdy enough, some are worst with sticks that can break into pieces to let you fall deeper into the quicksand. Having a taste of being stuck in the quicksand, you put up barriers to make sure no one close to you will ever near it. Cos I don't know, who I am no more. Hey all
I'll make this post short & sweet - Hectic and stressful exam week, complexion going for the worser plus fatigue - You know I'm so shock I'm still able to wake up early every morning still and always reaching school 15 minutes earlier - Daily grades otherwise have been improving, constant B's & A's(: - Having confidence to score well? For 2 modules! One bad thing is when I get A grades, I tend to have higher expectations of myself. So, I will be more stressed and more disappointed if I drop, but in a way I will also be more active in class hahah :D On another note, - Cannot really stand the nonsence of the ongoing behavior, 2 sided attitude and all following blindly I won't elaborate here but I think it's just plain childish act for all to follow up, what if you were in her shoes? Your didn't even try to understand and befriend her, what makes you to turn your back against her when it's her character? Okay time to go back to study world I really really really doubt I gonna do any notes for labmanagement, GG sigh. Loves till now,  Hey
Well one of my friend asked me today : 'So what are your hobbies?' I thought long and hard, and I realised, I rarely have any at all. To be honest, I do not know what interest me other than science aspects. I remembered when I was young I was so aspired to be a musician or even take up dance because those movements are always smooth and admiring. However, i don't have the guts and persistance because I tend to lose interest so easily, you know, and well, heh I'm so lazy. So well to sum it up I conclude I have no life (: Like seriously, because all I know now is study, sleep slack and leading a mega routined life. i know, like at this age what else can I do besides studying right? So then again, I kept thinking and thinking, Just what the freaking hell is my purpose in life. It will always remain a question mark Because after all that's gone, all that's experienced and the ugly truth facing right in my face that I will unlikely reach my goal It's all rules down to : So what am I here for? Anyone has an answer for me? (: I swear, I really feel very unimportant to everyone else right now. Or maybe, I was never important in the first place (: Till then,  I ruin everything,
Not wanted :( Only when one loses something, they realises it's importance. I'm satsified as long as I've my earpiece and music with me
Long slow pace walks make me reflect about myself and the ones around me It kind of act as a natural remedy as well (: Sometimes I admit, I can be really proud when I catch the concept fast, due to my interest And I AM VERY BIAS TO PEOPLE WHO ARE LAZY. But I'm sorry to say I really don't like those who don't even put in the effort to pay attention in class, using the time for leisure activities. When being posed a question then panic and come over to ask for answer, can't you freaking pay attention? When you're home, what are you doing then? Can't you leave these unnecessary stuffs during your free time? To school is to study, don't waste your time and money can? Even if is friends/ close friends, I think work and personal life should be considered as separate matters And it really sucks when you don't want to help with the team and still can fucking come over and play a fool, seriously getting on my nerves. I can't deny that when I'm in serious mode and because I'm aim for the best in my slides and understanding, you not helping and being so reliant trying to distract me or delete my notes and completed work, it's really damn fucking irritating okay. Jessie is such a haughty, perfectionist and bad girl When she aren't smarter than the rest but here she is saying about others. Laughs. Till then,  I've always had this strong liking for wrist tattoos (:
As said here, I shall let things be how it is like now You need time, is okay I will wait, and meanwhile I will try to be happy as well Trying to be stronger, sorry for being goddamn selfish Ain't giving up because I don't want to regret But seems like I'm always too slow and too late I let the chance granted to me to pass by :( Side brainstorm process PSBAcademy or MDIS? I shall go for normal biomedical track instead of monash 6 Modules for sem1 year 3, that shall jolly well take my life Still thinking and thinking Life goes on; Back to studies time It's not helping
Thanks for adding on to the hurt Thanks alot too I fucking know what to do already Don't fucking come crawling back (: You just don't know how the fuck I hate myself How fucking dumb can I get? I don't want to believe all the craps I used to know anymore Lies lies lies lies lies lies lies lies lies lies lies |
