Last major exams in one month's time.
Mad lazy to study again.
I'm left with 3 more problems, and re-cap of the previous(s) .

Yawnnnn....

[24th july] 
Met up with michelle & liyin @citysquare mall, momiji jap buffet!!!
It was around $30, but worth it cos food was fresh, variety and also fondue!!!
It's somewhat like sakura, just provided with snow crab (which we had difficulty eating!) and FONDUE!!! 
Got a shocked when they came back with ice cream & cake, and mini celebrated for me <3
Thankyou girls & for the present! Muacks!!

[25th july]
Shuyi came over to my class to pass me a handmade keychain :$
First break, part of e37f came over and celebrated plus smear cake on hair and face!!!! So I had to survive with the coffee smell that is so strong!
I felt like so long since last blew candles on cake, and even cutting. 
It makes me remind of alot of things... 
Thankyou ivan xiaoyang jiayu syham baz anw!! :D

Thankyou deon for the agar cake lol! 

Actually planned is tonight having dinner with chiachin, syah and cheryl
Then they said plan cancel cos they got bursary.. so slacked with cheryltay at school playing monopoly deal and finish up rj. 

Went to hougang mall and what?
Stupid asses bluff me and to think I didn't even suspect a thing cos I trusted and believed them!! 
Total shock la can!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dined at pizzahut and thankyou very much people for making this day awesome!! 
Thankyou eve cc syah cheryltay ivyk gj j teddy farhan!!!
Hehehe mega love the kuromi also!!

Reached home and received a call from..... gino. 
Hahaha shy! thankyou dude!


Thankyou everyone, that wished me, celebrated for me, mad surprises, changing my thoughts and also making me very very very happy after a long time  (: 
<33333333333333333
LOVE YOU ALL SUPER MAX MAX MAX 



Hello to 19 year old me,
I will still continue to be mega BHB & juvenile (:
Loves, 

Tuesday after lesson, around 10pm
Sending pngchinwen off to boston !! <3

He's mad cute with specs *meltsssssssss*

Missed the last train so tonned at Changi airport.
Yes this is me attempting to plank!
I know I fail right! But super fun!
I'm damn afraid to fall flat on my face though, see I hugging the dustbin so tight ><
& I can't balance, leg not straight enough.

So wed came home at 8am,
Slept all the way till 5pm like a pig only.
Chionged immunology P9-11 till superrrrrrrrrr lethargic.


Today, microbiology SUPER SLACK till too boring ><
Done for the day before 3pm, cannot go home cos having last UT for the day, immunology .
Overall for UT2 I think still okay, but doubt will get an A for any?

Sigh,
It's manageble but I think partially due to the tiredness in me,
I can't really think.

Rest day for today,
Next week shall start revising for Ut3 again :/

Bye!

Most of the time, 90% I am alone at home.
But sometimes, I prefer that than having a home filled with quarrels.
 
I don't know am I right or not to think this way
But sometimes I really feel like a maid, doing the chores, settling meals, juggling it with school work and stress from UT.
I got so angry with myself, I really don't even know do I have the rights to rant all these.

So sometimes I prefer to keep it to myself.
To end the lonely nights tearing myself to sleep, with images of mummy flashing back
Even so, I keep them in silent.
I don't want my dad to worry, anyone to ask: what's wrong?

Maybe I'm too softhearted
Maybe I'm too sensitive
Cos after all these craps, here I am tearing by myself while others continue on with their life, treating as if nothing had happened before.

Well, whatever I had done, contributed to keep this house going,
Mistakes will always be on me, while credits will always be on bro
I had this major 'responsibility', just because I am at home most of the time, no it's not dad implicated this thought on me, but plainly just bro.

Whenever I throw food away, be it family members rushing off to their events and I had cooked just enough but they were in a hurry
I feel so guilty of myself.
And my diet is not doing any good to me either
I get so stressed up by exams and this shit, I rarely eat.
I don't have the appetite.

When is the last time when we eat together?
When is the last time I feel loved?
When is the last time there is family harmony?
I'm not expecting much, I'm sure of it.
But this tiny hope, I really don't know when will it happen.

Sometimes I learn about other people's family background
I don't want to compare, but I tell myself in someway perhaps I'm better off.
Every family has their own problems, I'm just too..... silly .

I will be okay I guess.


The only solution is to drown myself in studies.
There was this time I actually resort to slitting of wrist again
It doesn't happen, no blood, no injury till dermis...


Mummy I miss you very much.
Mummy I hate my life very very much right now
Mummy, sorry for being too reliant on you
Mummy, please come back... 

:'(

Hi my life is so boring >:(

Biochemistry UT later, still must go school for it ! ><
So tired & lazy, I can't wait for this semester to end.
3 and a half more weeks,
Gonna endure and perservere.

Biochemistry UT1 grades & immunology grades not out yet.
Don't know what RP is doing siah.
A&P I got B for UT1.
I was 1.5 marks away from A, BUT 1.5marks away from C.
Such close margin right?


I need some laughters.
I miss 5A2

Hey all

I had chosen the path on Recombinant DNA.
It will enable an opportunity to Monash University, if my results are good enough.

I Will try very very very very hard for this to happen (:
Although I am afraid of adapting, afraid of the interview, afraid of the people over there and the way of studying,
But I ain't gonna give up.


I will try very very very hard.
I will, I must.

Hey all.

Recombinant DNA / Medical technologist?
I'm in major FML mode now!!

Recombinant DNA:
Proteomics - study of protein using biochemistry and biology
Genomics - genome structure, function, mutations (genes)
Structural biology - relationship between biomolecules; particular proteins & DNA, structure, function, interactions

Medical technologist:
Diagnostic pathology : Histology & cytology, tissue specimens, urine & faeces specimens
Clinical chemistry : Physiology of major organ system, homeostatic control of acid-base and electrocytes, biochemical disturbance
Haematology : study of blood

Don't know which to choose!!
I like genome and structural biology, and also haematolgy
Why three of these cannot be group together!!

If i go recombinant DNA..
Proteomics like hard only! The more in depth of biochemistry which is already hard enough...
Biology also must be very strong.. which I not am but very interested in..
However future is more promising...
I will work hard, but what if I do but yet I can't score well?

If I go medical technologist..
I only interested in haemotology!! But is the application, so mostly lab and I love lab sessions !!!!
However more likely to stick to lab research and all after graduation.. not flexible... but maybe I also want to study for degree so it doesn't matter
(if i can )

Major FML.
The dateline's on 15thjuly.


I don't know which to choose  
It's for year2sem2 and year 3..
:(

Hey all.

The picture I took with Pngchinwen! (L)(L)(L)
HE SO CUTE RIGHT!!!!!!!
& I look super unglam max cos i was super shy ):

What we gave him, full of thoughts and efforts and love :D

Today I studied three problems, heh so proud of myself.
But I'm total K-O now
& I'm back to mapling, level 60 icelighning mage LOL.
I freaking forgot my acc & pw for my level 70+ aran =.=

Time to sleep now,
Loves!